|I love tattoos the way an anorexic woman hates food...if that makes since.
||[Oct. 10th, 2009|09:39 pm]
I have got this itch again, an itch that normally sends me to the tattoo shop. I am trying to be good and not spend money, I am working so hard for it and I just want to get caught back up on bills. This itch is killing me.....tattoo would cost me at least $100, new piercing $50ish. I don't know why I get this way and it bugs me...but I have to get it gone and I don't know another way. It is not what is left behind it is what the pain takes away that feels so refreshing. The only non painful things that might work is getting my nails done because it makes me feel beautiful or cutting my hair, but then I am afraid of regretting cutting my long hair. Guess I could take the $100 and go talk to a therapist for an hour....but that is a 50/50 chance I will walk out feeling any better. I am trying so hard not to give in!!! Really I am. My son, My son is what I keep telling myself over and over.