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Been gone awhile....... [Sep. 27th, 2011|11:31 am]
[Current Location |United States, California, Concord]
[Current Mood |lonelylonely]
[Current Music |Luke Bryan "Do I"]

Does anyone even use LJ anymore? I recall a time in my life when I was in love and happy and this journal has most of that captured in its posts, as I read back through years of posts, I can't believe how some things have changed in my life, not sure its for the better or the worst. Humm....
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one at a time [Oct. 14th, 2009|10:37 am]
[Current Location |United States, New York, New York]
[Current Mood |sadsad]

I feel them they are on their way, tears.
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I love tattoos the way an anorexic woman hates food...if that makes since. [Oct. 10th, 2009|09:39 pm]
[Current Location |United States, California, Elk Grove]
[Current Mood |guiltyguilty]
[Current Music |Just the voices in my head]

I have got this itch again, an itch that normally sends me to the tattoo shop. I am trying to be good and not spend money, I am working so hard for it and I just want to get caught back up on bills. This itch is killing me.....tattoo would cost me at least $100, new piercing $50ish. I don't know why I get this way and it bugs me...but I have to get it gone and I don't know another way. It is not what is left behind it is what the pain takes away that feels so refreshing. The only non painful things that might work is getting my nails done because it makes me feel beautiful or cutting my hair, but then I am afraid of regretting cutting my long hair. Guess I could take the $100 and go talk to a therapist for an hour....but that is a 50/50 chance I will walk out feeling any better. I am trying so hard not to give in!!! Really I am. My son, My son is what I keep telling myself over and over.
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Pulled from a friends journal.... [Mar. 28th, 2009|07:00 pm]
"I got a little crazy and a little bit turned on when I felt his erection pressing into my stomach and tried to take a couple nips out of his lips."

Awww to be in love and wanted again.
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Blood n Pain 4 Love [Mar. 28th, 2009|06:05 pm]
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New tattoo added into existing tattoo:

Colton is my son.

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I am addicted to Etsy.com [Mar. 26th, 2009|02:48 pm]
[Current Mood |bouncybouncy]

Well if you know me you know I love.....shopping online, elephants, tattoos, and my son!! So when I came across Etsy I was addicted at once. I have spent hours looking at all the cool hand made stuff.

I was so excited when I came across Home Studio they had some of the cute trendy rocker loving necklaces around. I couldn't help myself when I saw the lil elephant pendant I had to buy it, then I saw the "mother" tattoo/rocker style one and had to buy it too...I had to curb my addiction and stop with only 2 but I tell you I could have bought TONS more.

I can't tell you how excited I was to see the package in my mail box when I got home today. I tore it open and put on my new lil elephant necklace. I love it!!

You know you all want to be like me so go to Home Studio and start shopping away!! I promise you will find something to match your personality.

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lost –adjective [Dec. 2nd, 2008|06:48 am]
[Current Mood |sadsad]

1. no longer possessed or retained: lost friends.

2. having gone astray or missed the way; bewildered as to place, direction.

3. distracted; distraught; desperate; hopeless

I think I have lost a very important person to me forever.
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Because I keep promises...... [Dec. 1st, 2008|08:51 pm]
[Current Mood |gratefulgrateful]

I am super happy with my new body. I am not soooo happy that I would become a stripper or anything, but I can say that I walk with my head a little higher and it makes me feel good to have people look and me and try to figure out what is different.

I even got asked if I got new boobs. said no always had these and they are REAL....but you can just notice them better, because I am not wearing clothes that are 3 sizes too big any more.

So MOM....I am happy today because:

1. I love my new look

2. I am excited about buying cool belts to ware that people will actually get to see!

one more just to be an over achiever.....

3. Because I will be back on track for my AA in January!
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I have only hated two women in my life.... [Sep. 26th, 2008|10:02 am]
so much that I have wanted to kill them.....

My step mom and HER
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Sleep little baby..... [Sep. 25th, 2008|10:14 am]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]

Colton slept through the night last night, funny thing is. I didn't. I woke up at HIS normal times, and went in to check on him, every time he was sound asleep.

I hope this is a sign of the things to come, and I hope I can get off HIS sleep schedule.

I have no clue why but I feel like I have been hit by a truck. I didn't get into work till 9am!

I am running off Starbucks and Tylenol.
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